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- Mood:
sad
I'm not sure why thought, although i might be still young; but i can say my mind can be mature enough to settle down anytime. Oh well you guys can say " what about clubbing and stuff ? " Well.. all these can cut down, i'm willing to cut down on these stuff to spend time with him. =X Than i'll know you guys will say " Aiya don't bluff lar.." i can only say cut down..but sometimes if got occasion than go lor, but sometimes i think clubbing is wasting money n time =X IF i could use those times to spend it with him, why not ? =P hehe
Seriously, at first i would think that we will have an age gap which might make us difficult to communicate. But after knowing him this long, but not very long, lols, i would say when i'm with him; i'm more careful with my words, actions and everything. Because, i'm not sure why oso. Lols!! >.< Oh come to think of it, we haven't met up for almost 1 month + already. =X Some people i think they cannot wait, not like me~ =X kekeke, oh well all i can say is i think this past 1 month + i've been flirting around ba ? which is something not my forte =X so i guess i'll stop, made up my mind, continue waiting for him and seriously.. now i really realise the more i've not seen him, the more i miss him. >.< bleah...
MisSinG YoU~~~
- Mood:
embarrassed
Haiz..this mth gonna be suffering again..just like tha past 1 mth plus.. =/ After which next mth would be better..as my old number i would not use often..so i'll pay ard 20++ for the plan price n same for my new number side.. P.S new number got unlimited sms =P So next mth my fone bill will cost ard 50+.. plus my insurane ard 170++ . So yupp..next mth shld be better off =X
Alright enuff of information >.< hahaha Good nightz and i hate my camp which is soooo freaking far >.<
Missing you~~
- Mood:
sleepy
Hmmz, recently after enlist been busy camp hoping. Lols, dono wad they wana do to me. Now kena post to Glouchester camp, so freaking far. =/
Recently a lot of things had happened too. Its been almost a month since i last saw him, and i really do miss him a lot. Its not that we are together but he's been treating me very good. =X Ask my closest friends, they will know. Hehe..Even thou he's been busy, when the H1N1 thingy has gone yellow, he called me personally to remind me to take care of myself. I was shocked and touched >.< hehe after that seldom contact has he was busy n bcox of the H1N1 thingy. Everyone has been taking precaution, so all i hope is he would get better and possible meet up again. Lols.. all i know now is i might have fallen for him. But rencently there's too much 'test' going on. 'Test' that to see if i might change my heart for someone else ? I not sure are those 'test', but i know it's not working as i'm going to continue waiting... =)
- Mood: lonely
Its been 4 weeks since i last posted o_O lols..thats kinda long..oh well..alot of things happened lately..got good and bad..and most are bad ~ =/
Just tp update ~
1: I have been enlisted since mar
2: Now i know how GOOD is ns life =/
3: Still camp hopping
4: Family finacial prob ? ='/
5: Getting more stress up n depress easily =x
6: Despite all these things, there is someone who cheers me up and made me forget all worries, althou we r frens for a start; i'll wait =)
haiz..these are only part of the changes i listed..there are more..just dun feel like listing them..scare the more i list..i will start to cry. =/ sigh..next time got time blog again ba...cya ~~
- Mood: sad
- Mood: sad
Nice rite =P 58th floor leh >.< so high luh..at first i nv ever thou of staying in one of any sg de hotel, dream maybe got. But it came true!! omg!! >.< all thx to my kor =P hehehe thx kor lotz lotz lotz ^^ muackz~~ hahahaahahahaha i was like shoooo happy n shock wen i first arrive in the room...aiya forget to take the room pics T.T
Oh well~ clubbing was fun but i had alittle too much =X and so ps i vomited >.< ahhhhhhhhh =/ oh well..i had fun..hehehe ~~ lalalaalalala
- Mood:
happy
I miss KTV !! i want KTV.. hahahahahahahahaa
- Mood: happy
- Mood: happy
Secondly, er er =/ i almost had second attack when im in ipoh =( but sianz.. ~.~ if happen again than gg..i need go see doc..get medical history this n that..maybe down pes..damn sianz if down pes..i wan go saf band luh T.T haiz..really lost..dono wad to do >.<
Oh well i go rest ler =/ tired...nitz all .....
- Mood: sad
Another thing is abt my health =X after 3yrs..it happen again =/ haiz..i really dono wad to do now..total lost..one is if it really happen again..than i got to down pes in ns..which is good..but i wont b able to join saf band =/ second is see doc will cost money =X haiz..why all these..i ask for shorten life not get illness leh!! lols >.< jkjk.. oh well..i just hope im not lonely =/
I shall continue blogging after i come back from ipoh ba =/ "Mina Sayonara!" >.<
- Mood: calm
Its been almost going to a year knowing everyone. Walking down the isle of those roads and path we walked before brings back lots of memories. Memories of us laughing together, playing together, singing together and of all bitching together! LoLs >.<
No Matter what had happened, you guys are still my friends. I treasure each and everyone of you guys, throughout my life, i will never forget my friends. =) But still, i always get flash back, sometimes smile because its so great, but sometimes tears because from the look of now, everyone has their own life.
Oh well, shall not ponder over too much, its bad for health. ^-^ Hahaha, do take care everyone. =)
If one sacrifice will patch the bond once was made, i don't mind be the sacrifice because i'm the one....
- Mood: loved
- Mood: depressed
But still thats not the problem actually, for once let me tell u guys, i don't ask money from my parents since the day i started working few years ago. I asked only when im not working, and i WILL NOT ask money from them when i know they got a problem. And please, i'm a person with feelings. For many times when they talk to me, i always feel like crying but i can't. I had to control, i know earning money is not easy bcox my family is big.
My previous pay will like 600 and i had to use part of it to buy back my psp bcox i did not tell them i lost it. And i know this might sound stupid to you guys, but in my entire life i DID NOT LOSE anything this expensive before. Thats part of the reason i did not wan to tell them. Even they ask mi where my pay gone to, i say u "upgraded" my psp, the rest of the money i gave to my mum and part of it to pay my insurance. and i spend only like less than 50.
You guys might think, than new year no need buy new clothes and stuff ?? To me now, doesnt really is a need. I have clothes looks new to me, even when my mum says she wants to give me money go buy. I said no mum, keep it. I dun need. =)
Now whoever read this, pls get the situation right, im not a person who spends alot and i haf feeling de okayz! -.-
- Mood:
irritated
In order to save money, like i said, i decided to stay at home as much as possible so i do not need to ask for any money. But the whole day i actually really wish that i can shorten my life for like 10 to 20 years ? In exchange for my family wealth and happiness, sometimes i really feel i'm a burden.
How i wish i had someone who really likes me and take care of me, than maybe i can leave the burden of having you guys to feed one more son. =/ But than, this will never happen because from what i see there is no such person who will find my inner beauty. =( Haiz, enough of these le ba, think i'm gonna' stay home till than. I'm sorry to my friends too that i don't think i will be able to go out with you guys because family problems. I know some of you guys might think, it's okay, we pay for your expenses lor. Nah, thanks a lot for the thoughs but save it for yourselves are better than spending it on me. =) Friends to me does not need to have money to be my friend.
I shall stop here, i'm getting very tired, maybe my life has shorten. getting tired and old liao. Haha, oh well still, i really wish i don't have all these family problems. And the fault is Money. Haiz, maybe i should go sleep and dream about someone who loves me and willing to take care of me for the rest of my life, than maybe my family burden will be lesser. >.< =) Good nights to those reading these.
- Mood: sad
- Mood: happy
Ending of 2008 in 1 1/2 days time..lols.. this yr a lot of things had happend.
Firstly was i came out of ITE to study my 'O' levels, which i did manage to study hard and have confidence in passing. =D
Secondly was i made new friends, friends which i know that we will stay together for long, but many things had happened. =/
Thridly was knowing the 3 of you, 1st one i took the courage for the first step but it didn't work out. =x 2nd one i initiated again which it worked out, =) but didn't last. =( 3rd one again i took the first step knowingly i got no chance, and it didn't work out. LoLs. ~ ~
Fourthly, i think i should move on like someone did. Instead of holding on to the past and make myself suffer, but there is one thing i still want to say. Although i let it go, i can no longer be the old self again because you have changed too.
Lastly, i think the group won't last because of this and that, haiz this wasn't what i wish for during my birthday wishes.. ='(
- Mood:
sick
- Mood: sad
- Mood: sick
